hi
i am reading that other girls' thread
i wonder why they are upset
what is wrong from getting money from men or saying awful things about men ?
anyway
this is my secret palace
i will leave it soon
tonight i will eat some yummy food
and an energy drink to cleanse my soul and end the night

my stepdad got a house
but my mum and i are still struggling to find a place to rent
i hope i can decorate my own room soon
and smell nice candles
and be really happy

sorry for not showing my body
i am
realising that regardless of whether i post my body or not doesnt matter
i will be forgotten and replaced anyway
i only make these threads for temporary attention before i get bored
and i will leave it soon to be forgotten or deleted
i will post nicer things
i wish i could postmy body for even temporary nice words but i feel too fat - i am too fat - and every diet fails
but i won't let that stop me from trying
i think having my own room and being excited for the future will motivate me more
and
i am excited for a better future
amen

i have stopped hurting myself
i will starve and hurt and bruise myself
it makes me feel better

i want to feel better