>>24548933 You'll need to go beyond religion and beyond the limitations of the mind, but you have to start somewhere, so read the Bible, ACIM, the Noble Quran, the Vahinis and the Holy Geeta.
https://www.vatican.va/archive/bible/index.htm
https://acim.org/acim/text/introduction/en/s/51?wid=toc&fwv=true
https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLD119B7669B0A3CE6
https://www.sathyasai.org/media/ebooks
https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLvctceCTQG8LMSWNsKx1otfLUw0N_Jysx

Or go play video games and waste your time/life if you prefer. Your choice.