I've been working at my current job for two years now after finally getting a degree I didn't care about anymore halfway through. Though I was scared initially I also had some hope that I would have some Glow up and would be finally able to socialize after doing the final years of my studies in almost full isolation. This turned out to be huge copium though. Passing that two year mark and realizing I am right where I've started hit me like a truck.

I've made zero friends at work and am still unable to have some casual conversations with my colleagues that don't feel like I'm putting up an act. I treat work like a hostile environment that I want to get out of ASAP everyday.

It's not like I'm getting bullied at work, my colleagues tried to reach out to me in the beginning but I blocked them off and after a while they stopped trying. I can't blame them for this.
I'm extremely anxious in social interactions and have trouble articulating my thoughts. I guess some people avoid me because they think I'm genuinely retarded jfl. To top that off I'm not even good at my job and slacking off big time right now, I'm suprised no one noticed yet.
I'm also envious at my coworkers with how far ahead of me they are in their private life and professionally. I can't relate to them at all.

I noticed these problems since the begging but I shrugged it off and coped with well some people need more time to get used to a new environment but now it's been TWO years and I didn't make progress AT ALL. Meanwhile new coworkers are like two weeks on the job and already know more about the place than I do jfl. There must be something fundamentally wrong with me.
I feel like my mental health has detoriated even further since I started working because of all the cringe interactions I have to experience everyday and seeing how others are able to get along just fine. I now want to isolate more than ever.

>ywn be the only person to visit a qt autistic japanese girl on her birthday
I hope she's having fun