I'm straight as an arrow --- 25 years of it --- but recently I found myself finding this man very attractive and he turns me on more than most women. Like, I would genuinely consider getting into a relationship with him and come out as gay - that's how attractive I find him. This is confusing me because if I was secretly gay and supposedly this closeted I would be very self conscious, but in my head I genuinely don't care, I'm just very confused.