When I was 8 I had a teen-aged friend who lived on the same street and one day he manipulated me into getting undressed then he held me down and blew me until I orgasmed
tried to vaguely talk to my older brother about it but he made it clear that gay shit wasn't ok so I knew for damn sure I wasn't going to tell my parents
couldn't stop thinking about it and didn't know how to jerk off so eventually I went back to hanging out with the guy