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Deltarune is fucking horrible for my mental health as it gives me a glimpse of what it was like to have a truly kind childhood with endearing friends rather than excessive bullies, estrangement, and negligence from adults. I just sit and watch as the protagonists have actual soul-bonding moments which were only seen by proxy on my side as my friend group of one was one established out of sheer necessity because no one wanted to be with either of us. I ache at the screen whenever I see the slice of life segments because all I can ever do is observe through the window, like always. I know it's just pixels on a screen, but dammit, Kris, if you only knew what a good thing you have going. Just...hug one of your friends for once. Enjoy playing games with them. Go to the fast food place late at night and laugh about how much something sucked that day...

I would have sliced my arm and one of my legs off for something like that. Just a friend group that ACTUALLY WANTED to be with me. I left for college and when I returned it was like I was a wandering eidolon. No one recognized me, when I mentioned the few solo antics that I did that actually caught attention, people gasp and wonder how I got the way I am after a modern glow-up.

There is a hole inside of me.
I was raised by loneliness and isolation to the point I don't even recognize that there was an apparent "epidemic" of it going on because that's just "normal" for me.
I see people talking about how they "finally got the gang back together" for a few nights and all I can do is wonder,

>What's it like?

The pain never goes away no matter how many times I curl with my animals.