I had a best friend. Literally my only friend growing up really. Got to around middle school and you could tell we were kinda going different directions. He was hardcore into grunge and punk slop while I was more or less normal. Anyways, that summer we stayed over at his place and his mom was cracked the fuck out. He stole her cigs and we were just giggling and smoking them together, sipping on beer that really tasted like shit but again it was fun. He kissed me that night but it was some joke or dare, I never really remembered clearly. My heart had never ever pounded that hard.

Years went by, he decided to starve himself and twink mode on account of his horrible depression and shit family. I always tried to not make it weird but by the time I was a junior he was in my fantasies all the time. He was cute, maybe gorgeous to me, even though I had a gf at the time it was just performative bullshit. That winter he came over to watch a couple of movies and we ended up dry humping against each other for hours. Just talking and touching and grinding, all night. Came multiple times. Broke up with my gf a week later and we've been fucking constantly since. Been maybe 6 years since that night. He's even cuter than he was then. /Blog