How do you do it?

I can't understand myself. It's like I'm writing a character who's all over the place. Does what I'm saying make any sense?

was the quiet kid, and everyone around me thought I looked kind of good. Any anon here same as me?

Is it gay that I'm okay with someone killing me if they do it painlessly? My brother said it's faggot behavior to let someone kill you without getting angry, no matter the circumstances, especially when you’re just minding your own business.