>>529720501
it is in moments like this that i get reminded why people who claim i am larping my mental illnesses simply bring confusion in me and curiosity why they think that as opposed to feeling like i have to prove myself because i am being proved yet and yet again of how my instabilities ruin so much around me and make me impossible to deal with irl. yes i can be kind yes yes etc but it is nothing like being around me irl and i wish i could control myself and everything and i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it and i will stop crying within the next 20 minutes for the meetup and to not let it affect me there time to throw it all aside my mind as none of this happened to my character atleast recently within the past 20 minutes most likely therefore it does not affect her and isn't real. AHHHHHFUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK I HAVE TO BASH MY HEAD IN BUT THAT CAN COME LATER