You will never be a real angel. You have no wings, you have no halo, you have no heaven to fly to. You are a schizophrenic child twisted by the Bible and Satan into a crude mockery of God's creation.
All the “validation” you get is two-faced and half-hearted. Behind your back people mock you. Your parents are disgusted and ashamed of you, your “friends” laugh at your sinful behavior behind closed doors.
Jesus Christ is utterly repulsed by you. Billions of years of earth's creation have allowed God to sniff out frauds with incredible efficiency. Even fake angels who “pass” look like a normal human men. Your ungodly attitude is a dead giveaway. And even if you manage to con some Christian at Church, they'll laugh and kick you out as soon as they find out you're not a real angel
You will never go to heaven. You put on fake wings every single morning and tell yourself that you're holy, but deep inside you feel the depression creeping up like a weed, ready to crush you under the unbearable weight.
Eventually, it’ll be too much to bear - you’ll lose your faith in Jesus, succumb to earthly temptations and develop depression. Your parents will find you doing normal secular activities and be relieved that they no longer have to live with the unbearable shame and disappointment. They’ll bury you with a headstone marked with your name, and every passerby and Christian for the rest of eternity will know a human is buried there. Your soul will leave earth and go to hell. and all that will remain of your legacy is an abomination of God and a worshipper of the Devil
This is your fate. This is what you chose. There is no turning back you should repent before it is too late.