>>81916443
>be me circa 18-20
>neet
>depressed
>autistic
>try to kill myself
>dad kicks me out
>end up homeless
>extreme luck meeting someone nice
>they shelter me and get me back on my feet
fast forward to now
>be me 24
>3000 miles away from my hometown
>barely work
>mostly sustain myself on other peoples generosity
>sleep schedule so fucked that i wake up at like 10pm
>spend all my time gaming or watching youtube and anime all night
>parents still dont want me around
>no friends except the person who let me move in who has grown to dislike me
nothing ever changes. im realising that the issue is me. ive tried to get out more, or work more hours, or be social, but it always ends in a burnout and me regressing to this stage again. its like my brain cannot age past being a teenager. i dont think it will ever get better anymore. wonder where ill end up when i cant stay here either