>>40279340
I'll keep the personal details short and probably keep it to this post, I have complicated feelings about my family. It's clear to me that they care about me and that i care about them too. But knowing how almost all of them share pretty negative views on these subjects feels brutal to me. I've only come to know myself recently, i'm leaping into the unknowns with almost nothing to grab back onto once it's too late. I'm not ever going to die. But i've been crippled with the fear of expressing myself my whole life. I'm sick of it. I want my family to either care for me as i want to be or i'll live with the pain of losing it all.

I'll be okay. Pic unrelated.