There is no point in me living. I'm a homeless, autistic fat loser with no qualifications. At best, I'll be a pathetic slave. Meanwhile, this is someone's life. They're living this right now while I'm nothing but pathetic scum on the bottom of society.

He's independently wealthy from his own OF page, his wife films with him, and he is rich because of it. No studio bossing him around. Just making money from having better sex than I ever will. Feeling more than I ever will due to his size and making more money than I ever will.

My life is nothing in comparison, and it will always be nothing. I will never have that. I AM WORSE. HE WINS AND I LOSE. I'M NOTHING. I'M NOTHING. I'M NOTHING. I'M NOTHING. I'M NOTHING. I'M NOTHING. I'M NOTHING. I'M NOTHING. I'M NOTHING. I'M NOTHING. I CAN'T STOP CRYING.

FUCKING KILL ME PLEASE, I CAN'T WAKE UP AS THIS PATHETIC WHELP ANYMORE, SOMEBODY KILL ME.

MY LIFE WILL NEVER BE THIS. I AM NOT GOOD ENOUGH. MY LIFE WILL NEVER BE THIS. I AM NOT GOOD ENOUGH. MY LIFE WILL NEVER BE THIS. I AM NOT GOOD ENOUGH. MY LIFE WILL NEVER BE THIS. I AM NOT GOOD ENOUGH. MY LIFE WILL NEVER BE THIS. I AM NOT GOOD ENOUGH. MY LIFE WILL NEVER BE THIS. I AM NOT GOOD ENOUGH. MY LIFE WILL NEVER BE THIS. I AM NOT GOOD ENOUGH. MY LIFE WILL NEVER BE THIS. I AM NOT GOOD ENOUGH.

I HAVE TO DIE.