my fiance has an old toy like pic related

when i'm horny enough, i punish myself with a hands free orgasm. it's like my hard reset button. even before i had this toy, and just had my sister's old hairbrush handle, i'd get naked and lay on the bathroom floor. i lube up the toy and myself, lay on my side and slowly get it inside me. it stays off until it's in and against my prostate and then i turn it on max. at this point, if my pain tolerance is high enough and i'm super horny, i might reach between my legs and fuck myself. but i usually don't, instead i push my hard cock down between my legs and close my thighs on it. the toys shape means i don't have to touch it and can just lay there squirming around on the floor until i milk an orgasm out of me. i'm not allowed to touch myself and usually cover my mouth and finish all over the back of my thighs.