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>youre a regular sadist you dont actually get to fully grasp how soul crushing the pain that your victim experiencing is, but if im also the victim i get to jerk off to that suffering that my male self feels.
Oh I see so you're trying to empathize with them on a deeper level for gooning purposes, well that does make sense I suppose.
>i wouldn't be masochistic with my normal woman self because thats humiliating and retarded
I mean it would be doubly more humiliating for a male. As a woman you're expected not to be able to stand up against it and to just generally be a sexual object but a man being reduced to that? It's the most humiliating thing in the world, worse than cuckoldry even.
>yeah thats the objective reality
Glad you agree. The reason I was mentioning it though was in the case that you think a cis man would be thinking like this. But since I conceded because you want to stick to the topic presented by OP then it's irrelevant I suppose. Feel free to ignore it.
>no im a straight woman with aap and an extremely weird sexuality
But you're still a guy on some level, at least internally so that would make you a faggot even if your body does not correspond. Like come on you admitted to having brap fantasies
>my bullies were male. thats why my fanatsies are aimed towards males
Understandable, do you think that if you were male though your bullies couldn't have bullied you? If so then this thought pattern does exist in ftms. A lot of them even plainly admitted to me that they feel safer from rape as a man. My partner for example says specifically this and he says it as the main reason for his transition because it would make him undesirable apparently. He's a sadist against males too btw, but only feminine ones