>get pathetically low effort scam email on my student email
>usually a couple of these a month
>always fill them out behind my VPN and enter nothing but obscenities
>the most recent one i put for my password "indian women crave big white cock hahaha"
>know it accomplishes nothing
>but for one quick second some poo is sad about what i said
>day is immeasurably better
>has now become my personal feel good ritual that makes me happy
all in a days work

not killing myself
not in a meme way either. i've had a profoundly fucked up life but despite that i've never given up and am still making progress little by little
don't give up, anons because then and only then is when you become a loser

here's why 4chan and the rest of the internet are the most cathartic thing ever conceived
There's no doubt whatsoever that I'm fucking retarded. Always have been and always will be. And I have spent most of my life insecure by this compared to the normies BUT it was the internet that showed me how phenomenally not retarded I really am. I've never blown my hand off with fireworks. I've never kept a cumbox under my bed for a decade. I've never sperged out so hard the cops were called on my solely for attempting to talk to a girl. I've never shoved a glass jar up my ass (or anything else) and died from it shattering inside my butthole. The list goes on, and on, and on forever because despite being retarded by normie standards I know that I'm not even CLOSE to the kinds of retardation that gets posted to the internet on a disturbingly regular basis.
Thanks, true retards. You healed me in a way no one or anything ever could