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>she'll talk to you if you want
I'm alive, and I will tell you what happened. There wasn't anything to 'talk' to, one huff of the air, and it sent me into some of the worst sickness I had in recent memory. My sleep schedule was inverted, sleep itself felt like I was being drained of life. I felt like I was shitting out my life-force with the runs I was having. Worst of all were the headaches, the relentless and pounding headaches that medicine is completely useless for. This lasted for 3 days before I caved in and contacted picrel. The sickness receded like a tide coming back from its high. I feel 'normal' again, the plague is gone, and with it my plans for that Black Moon ritual because Lilith was the key component of it.
>Isn't she?
She's a current of alien life, not 'alien' as in grays, but just something that's completely incompatible with human life. It's destructive as it's transformative. Lilith isn't Naamah. That's 'her' prodigy, the model, the standard that all other succubi hold themselves to. Lilith is something else entirely, not a succubus, closer to a death spirit. Compare her more to the Black Death than some sex goddess like Ishtar.
>Who told you that?
I applied the sigil Sammy gave me to her notebook that was found in that academy of hers. It contained a dossier on my life events. Most of it was blacked out save for two events. One was how I got a pretty nasty injury when I was a newborn, due to me 'somehow' swinging out of a cot in the middle of the night. The next one was getting lost inside a place that should've led to a kidnapping. Both of those events were attributed to a spirit under Lilith. She got her due from a relative of mine. Their firstborn son miscarried. There's a reason why many cultures have various gods of childbirth and midwifery, there's a spirit out that brings death to them.
>not kill them
She can and will, if you're self-destructive enough, she rather remake you into something other than human.