>>713407858
34 here. Each and every day is truly suffering. I don't have any friends. No girl friend. And soon no family. All I do is travel around the USA alone with my gaming laptop and wish I could re0live the days of being a NEET with lots of time and fun games to play.

Watching my favorite hobby, specifically my favorite genres be turned into casualslop is a life I don't want to live anymore. I hate the fact I can't do anything about it. I wish I would have become a game developer because I understand the depth in my games on another level. I look at others like myself and hate them for also not pursuing monkey code. I think about making a Youtube channel each day and about how niche I would be because I don't give a shit about slop. I watch other boomers like myself on Youtube who enjoy the games I enjoy and that gives me a little bit of life.

But honestly I don't know anymore. These days gaming is boring to me. It's not that I've grew up or something, it's just the fact that nothing catters to me specifically.