Just humor it for a bit. Try to convince me this isn't hell. How it tempts you with sensual pleasures only to take them away or make it impossible for you to get them, how it takes away everything and everyone you have ever loved, just the brutality of animal existence and war. How it leads you on only to kick you in the compadres. How in the hell is this not already hell? Hell isn't a BDSM chamber, it is a place of expectation, of trapped heavenly dreams that cannot be sated in the fires of material existence the deception of the great feast that only leaves you hungrier. Your piety does you no good here, you already died and went to the bad place. It is just a silly carnival of carne. None of this could possibly be real. It is so bad, so tragic, it is comical.