i really like this fetish. but not because i'm really gay. it's just that i feel like such an incredible failiure as a man that i feel like just giving up and getting fucked like a girl is the only way i'd ever get laid without paying for it.

There's ofc also some raceplay involved that makes it hot. I just don't know how to ever do this for real. a part of me doesn't even like black guys, so i'd have to kinda get myself into a scenario where it's more like i don't have a choice but to give up my ass to one. Tbf could be to a white guy too, just as along as they have a bigger dick than me. so they really make me feel mine is basically useless.