>>81885314
>Be 5'5, brown incel with autism, PTSD, a high IQ but also have severe anxiety
>Dad was a dark skinned Yemeni and mom is a swarthy Turk-Chechen mutt
>I have a cutecel phenotype, have no body hair and can't grow a beard
>Have a cut cock that is only 3.5 inches hard and I'm a weirdo weeb
>Was raised in a upper class French town until my dad died when I was 11
>Was adopted by my uncle and raised in a British muslim ghetto and my older cousin gave me shameful kinks
I have an older cousin who is half Chechen/half Irish (her mum was a convert) she looks like a blue eyed Eileen Galvin. When her dad (my uncle) went to jail, She was went to parties at night with whites. She was playing guitar/singing in a band. She wore skimpy dresses. Maybe it's weird but she gave me sexual relief. I spied on her getting naked from her closet and wanked. She caught me the 4th time and was irked that I had wanked using her socks. I started doing her homework and covering for her. In exchange she let me watch her undress and wank off but made me wear condoms. On my birthdays and during Eid she would shower with me and jerk me off and let me hump her long legs. She would giggle as I came, she told me how "cute" my cock is. It stopped when she was dating this lanky white and had loud sex with him when auntie was away. It made me sad. I walked in on her shagging, her bf had a really long, thick pink cock. Her tall body was all sweaty and his cock looked really juicy so I became bi. Instead of being a bitter incel, I would wank when I heard her fuck. It's like I was sharing her pleasure and it was sweet. She got dumped but kept on having loud sex with other tall rocker guys. I kept wanking and sometimes did it right outside her bedroom. She's so angelic and perfect. She got kicked out because she got pregnant. I know she gave me weird kinks but she's wonderful. I wish I could give her money, I wish I had got to massage her pregnant feet.