>asl
23/mtf/Germany
>letters
bi, trans
>about me
Venting about getting shit on for posting here last time -
Do you really think that I don't know that I'm the biggest problem to my own happines? I obviously do know that but does that mean I don't deserve any kind of connection? People on here tend to judge you while knowning nothing about you, even when I put in a lot of effort and it doesn't go anywhere, do you actually think I haven't been trying the best I could? It's not possible for me to put in the same amount of effort in with every person I talk to that's why I try to be selective in the first place. I assure you I've been trying hard and I do know I'm my the problem, should I just kill myself? I don't think so even if I think about quite frequently at times. Thank your for pointing out the obvious that I'm severly mentally ill.

I'm an autistic shutin neet who suffers from a lot of things, be it loneliness, depression, hopelessless, isolation, paranoia or anxiety. I'm very introverted, reserved and somewhat avoidant, though I've been trying to do better in that regard. I genuinely try my best at being nice and kind in the highest capacity I can, as long as you're not being an asshole for no reason. I'm extremely anxious about confrontation with others, that's also why it bothered me when random people started talking bad about me even though they're most likely guilty of the same things as I am, but that's fine, I just had to let it out. I've also been on hrt for more than 7 years if that matters.
>interests
Video games, anime, movies, tv shows, music, history, art, collecting media
>looking for
Someone I can appreciate and spend time with, I'd prefer someone who's older (mid 20s to early 30s) and more outgoing than myself,
Ideally it would turn into something more than just being friends, long-term, but there's no obligations for anything, I'm just trying to be honest in what I really want.
>not looking for
Normies, creeps, hostility
>discord
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