>7 years hrt
>7 years girlmode
>supposedly pass
>never call myself a woman, only agree when others do
>no friends because im afraid people can tell im trans or will find out
>so scared of anyone finding out that i cried and struggled to even tell my therapist that im trans
i need to fix my internalized transphobia or i will probably kill myself eventually. i don't know how to let myself live because i see myself as dirt for being a tranny and i instinctively expect cis people to as well. im terrified every time i talk to them.