I don't think I'm a lesbian, but I'm in a lesbian relationship. I care about my partner, she's like a part of me that was always missing until I found her.

Sexually, it just doesn't work unless I'm imagining that I'm having sex with a man though. I've been secretly chatting with guys online and reading yaoi to scratch that itch, and I'm starting to feel really bad. I haven't actually cheated yet, but I feel like my partner deserves better than I can give or be for her.

Is there a way to actually make myself a lesbian? I know that is probably something that's a bad idea, but I'm willing to become a lesbian for real for her if I can somehow.

I orgasmed from sitting and watching TV with a guy I've been crushing on. My brain went crazy imagining stuff and it just happened. I'm trans so I already worried he thought I was weird and I'm just hoping he didn't notice.

Do I have a hope with this guy again or should I just give up?