22f uk

I figured I'd open up with everything wrong with me, before getting to the nice, here-are-my-hobbies stuff. Everyone here is mental and I, for one, would like to recover, so here's what to expect from me.

I am randomly volatile, very judgemental, and with high standards for people that are almost impossible to reach. I have a history of cutting people off over very minor things, such as the way the way someone types, someone
speaking about philosophy (pointless shit for people who want to feel accomplished without doing anything), someone liking anime too muc- really, anything I see as indicator as a bigger flaw I do not want to deal with, or that minorly irritates me.

So, why am I bothering? And isn't my loneliness deserved? I'll answer the last question first; probably. The reason I'm bothering is that I do these things because I have had a tough upbringing that makes me hyper-critical, and cruel to strangers. I do not want to be this way. I want to change, I want to be kinder and better. It won't be smooth, I may explode, and if I do I am sorry. If we've spoken before, even if we argued, please do feel free to add me again and join me on a fresh start. I'm relying on the kindness of strangers.

>interests
I love history, mostly about European dynasty's. I know the most about the Tudors and War of the Roses. Feel free to educate me on more (though, the world wars are a bit dull to me). I really enjoy art, mostly drawing and shall begin classes soon. I'm starting to write again and any encouragement will be appreciated. I enjoy reading, I'm currently reading a historical non-fiction book, a historical fiction book and Berserk. I tend to go on long walks and name the ducks I see. If you play guitar, maybe you could help me pick it up again?

>values
I am very right wing. I am trying to be more open as I have said but I won't talk to people who engage in hook-up culture, e-sex or drugs.

>looking for
friends, nothing romantic or nsfw.

>disc
deep.dr33ms