I'm gonna open up here unneccesarily.

My BF is ten years older and is a larger bear. I love him deeply, I see my life with him. But I'm wrestling with this feeling of not wanting to waist my youth of twenties.

I get upset about this while I lay in bed at night.

I don't wanna hurt the person I love the most by making them feel like a side part of my life. But I don't wanna get older and resent him for lost time.

I would give this dude my other kidney if he needed it because he looks after me and does a good goddamn job of it. But I wanna sex until the sunsets and he isn't as capable of that anymore. He is on the asexual spectrum.