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>30yo
>rocked and rolled through my 20s fucking everything that moved
>somehow managed to work myself into an operations analyst position making shy of 6 figures
>you don't understand how fucked the entire system is until you're behind the scenes looking at numbers and logistics
>crash out, quit job, and have spent the past 8 months in a doomer pit trying to force myself to reintegrate into society
I have enough money saved as a down payment on a house but it is now being used to support me looking for work. There have been a few jobs I've worked but I can't last more than a month before I want to blow my head off. I've wanted to go back to being an electrician but even the trades have retarded jobs requirements like needing a 2 year degree. Modern society fucking blows. 2020 really fucked normies up. I have bought a 9mm pistol and have finger fucked the trigger with it loaded and pointed at my head. I don't wanna die, but I am accepting this might be how my story ends if/when I run out of money.