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For Shit man, that was actually good.

I've come to the conclusion that people don't like me because they know I'm faking my happiness.
The shitty thing is I've put a smile on this shitty face for my whole life to try and bring the joy out of others that I wish I had myself.

I'm an emotional vampire by some twisted, modern definition. This is why I'm a pariah everywhere I go. Misery loves company, but there is so much to be thankful for and so many little things that people take for granted.

I know it's easy and even attractive to not care. I know you don't give a fuck about this fake, gay world. But what the hell are you doing to make it better? I just want to be left alone now. No hope. No peace. No dignity. No looking up, no one. No place. No victory. No better off this year.
https://music.youtube.com/watch?v=Z0kKr8gtXcg&si=zUx0abUQZh4g8NNi

>pick Noelle candle at the church
>Kris and Susie pray for Rudy to get better.
Watching him struggling in bed in CH4 was rough. Please don't take Noelle's dad away, Toby. She's been through enough.