>>33356232
it does feel like she's on the verge of dumping me again desu
I met her yesterday and the day before and she wants to come over today, but I slept like dogshit in this heat and have a bad headache so wanna take a raincheck
I worry that she thinks I'm avoiding her after she chewed me out last night lol, in reality I just don't feel well (we can always meet up tomorrow cause we're both unemployed rn)
her criticisms were all fair but I just don't know if I can fix myself
she says that - respectfully - someone at my age should know what they want in life, and to pursue a career instead of just aimlessly hopping around part-time wagie jobs and being broke all the time... that I should know if I want a family and kids etc. someday, and just to get serious about life and goals, and being there for her instead of flaking and being wishy washy
all 100% valid concerns, and I told her that I would understand if she wanted to end things (she hasn't yet though)
I just struggle to function, life isn't my forte