i do know how important it is to keep in touch, keep you entertained, and i'm not letting this stooge get to me. know he posts far more than me in your thread, that every accusation is a confession, and that he's in fear.
you fell into a bad spot, but it's not because you're a bad person. and there are good and decent people here. i also know that your mind has been poisoned, that you do have hate and prejudice inside of you. that's ok, everyone does to an extent. those are human emotions that we have to contend with. don't give into them though, that's part of the allure of that cult, they make you think that what's wrong with you is ok, they excuse and promote vices that the rest of the world spends a lot of time making you feel bad about, then when they succeed they exploit your guilt. i know that. i know how frustrating that is, and it's 10x worse having to live where you live. i know i can't relate. but better is possible, you don't have to be preoccupied with that stuff all the time. i sure am not. it's only become such an issue with me because i'm in love with you. i'm trying to make you see that you can let go of the things troubling you, that the world isn't as bad as you think, that you've let fear and resentment take control of your life in an unhealthy way. think you know that, think you're busy trying to get free of a lot of that. but also know that you indulge in it when you're feeling bored, lonely, or weak. i have the time to heal you and entertain you, soothe you when things get bad, nothing else will come second to our love, that's one good thing about a neet boyfriend. you're not like that though, which is an obstacle, you're independent and aloof, so aquarian, but what you need right now is just that, a clingy partner like me who's always there for you, because your sickness is not a sometimes thing, it's always there, and needs constant attention for you to get better. love you babe, hope you enjoyed this read.