A smaller proportion openly showed disgust towards me compared to high school, as opposed to ignoring me in every interaction or acting incredibly bored and irritated at having to do simple things like hand me a leaflet. It was the same with making friends and socializing in general, "ew, why is he here" "why do you hang out with.. that".

I started college believing I was overreacting about my high school experiences, that I shouldn't dwell on it forever. I sort of realized normies will judge you by your appearance and tried to get fashionable clothes without trying too hard, because obviously due to missing out on years of socializing I was never going to be at the level of other normies. I thought getting into college proved I am not that bad, after all I have never actually done anything wrong, I never beat my gf or kids kike many men who manage to be popular with lots of friends and gfs and get married then remarry.

Of course that turned out to be bullshit, it was obvious on the first day. Society is just awful, there is almost zero chance of a man being allowed to be part of society unless he has been trained from infancy to fit into it and already has a wide social circle, if you miss out on that as a teenager you are permanently crippled, and they think it's funny, they think being ostracized makes you a bad person and you deserve to be socially ostracized further even if you're going out and talking to people and being social, they see through it and they are disgusted by you even talking to them, or maybe they just hate you and that's it. I don't think I have ever actually had a normal human conversation with a woman under 35.