>>712813545
Your problem is that you refuse to improve yourself because of your ideology telling you that it is Wrong and Evil.
In fact, you're so enshrouded by this ideology, you've somehow convinced yourself that it's impossible to do so in the first place.
I could try to explain that your way of thinking is shaped this way because you're part of a cult, but people in a cult tend to dismiss such claims.

You'll probably convince yourself that I am actually the one part of a cult and accuse me of being mentally ill or some nonsense like that.
Anyway, I hope you snap out of your haze one day.