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I'm sorry to hear, doctors are a real crapshoot anymore when it comes to prescribing. Some seem to get sadistic pleasure out of that gatekeeper role.
I'm not but I have some pretty extensive experience with medical things from having had my spine (incl. spinal cord) destroyed when I was in a bad car accident. Which is what led to my fent (and heroin, and any other opioid I could get my hands on) use. Depression naturally resulted from the mind-raping, life-ruining level of pain and complete upending of everything I had going for me. I was denied proper pain management for over a year and a half and it's a miracle I even lived through any of that. My life was flipped upside down and run over by a tank in an instant, forever, and I fell into an incredibly dark place because of it.
This place is kind of shitty for having such personal discussions. Would it be weird if I said hi on jewtube or added you on steam or something? I'm not even really sure where I'm going with any of this. I just see how badly you're hurting and want to try and help however I can. I'm the de facto therapist of my friends by virtue of having gone through such a ridiculous number of highly traumatic things at such a young age. I feel like I'm 25 going on 50.