Trust me I either know this or nothing at all: the moments he looks at the camera reveal far more than anything else could.
I sincerely want him to know that he can fix all of this at any time, that there is always another option. If it felt right to provide my personal information and if I thought he would receive it I would provide it. Gerbert (or Ryan or Mike or whatever your name is), it literally and physically pains me to see you go through this. You deserve to be happy and I want that to be your future. I hope this message reaches you.