>>33289932
>How do I not
you strive to get better and one day be able to
>right in front of me
sounds like you're not at the right place, you should be working on yourself so your feelings of inadequacy progressively disappear. you'll get better by self-improving and comparing yourself to yesterday-you, not random men.

>fitness
>better job
>better clothes
>better grooming
>better hygiene
>better perfume
>posture
>resting smiling face and happiness
>ability to small-talk
>flirting
>better car
>better house
>more active social life
>...

all this shit can be worked on. where are you at?