Whenever an anon or a friend is venting or trauma dumping to me, I can't help but feel indifferent or feel confused, I want to help them because they mean so much to me, I really do, but no words really come to mind. I've changed myself and has learned to front myself for everything else and to blend in properly, but this, no matter what I say it just feels hollow, the usual "I'm here for you", "I'm sorry you're going through that", etc. Maybe I just lack some sort of emotional awareness for this? But I do feel extremely sorry and sad for them, hoping I could hug them or something, so I'm not sure about that.

I find it a little ironic how I can mimic and fake everything, make others revere me and whatnot, but this is something I don't think I'll ever have and it makes me sad.