one week there and you'll realize how badly you've been lied to babe. how people there are freer and happier than anywhere else, all that crazy baggage the rest of the country has stops at the rocky mountains. we are like a different country out here. there's a lot fewer west coast people on 4chan, they don't really vibe with all the hate and nastiness. i'm a holdover from way back, when this site was a lot different. it bugs me that you guys do the "caturday" thing, that was old 4chan, way before the disgusting racism and hate and blackpills took over this site. if those people remember caturday at all, it was the reddit version, which was also stolen from the old channers. so your caturday is just a lie built upon a lie. rambling. but it's because i'm thinking of you, praying for you, know you're hurting right now and for once it's not my fault, which i guess i'm glad of, want to help you get better and feel better, think if you loved me again you'd notice a difference. when i'm feeling down i think of you and it gives me a lot of hope. gonna make my smoothie and enjoy the sunshine a little bit, then prepare for my talk with my brother. i'm going to ask him what the family surname is today too, dreading that but also hopeful, think i told you about this, he's in contact with a lot of my half-siblings and knows who my biological dad is, wish my mom weren't so selfish and empty-headed she could have just told me but that's the way things are. anyways, rambling again, but i'm about to learn some hard truths myself. love you and praying for you today like you wouldn't believe. can't wait until you're near again.