Sorry for not responding in a while anons, been busy with life stuff. But I wanted to give an update since it’s been about a week or so since I started reaching out to Tokoyo-no-kami (Eternity Larva).
So I’ve been praying to her regularly, and… damn. The experiences have been pretty intense. Not in a dramatic flashy way, but more like this deep, quiet understanding that just kind of settles into you. The biggest thing has been this overwhelming sense of the oneness of life, like really feeling how everything is connected in this endless cycle of life and death and transformation. It’s not just an intellectual concept anymore. It’s like she’s showing me how a dying leaf feeds the soil that grows new plants, how my own cells are constantly dying and being reborn, how even my thoughts and emotions are part of this endless flow of change and renewal.

I’ve also developed this weird new appreciation for being outside, even in these brutal summer days. Before I would’ve just complained about the heat and ran for the cool of the indoors, but now there’s something almost sacred about feeling the sun beating down, watching insects going about their business, seeing how life persists and thrives even in uncomfortable conditions. It’s like she’s teaching me to see the beauty in every stage of the cycle, even the harsh parts.

But apart from these profound shifts in perception, she’s pretty damn taciturn. No dramatic visions or clear communications like some of you describe with other kami (not that I’m consciously looking for that). It’s more like a quiet presence? Like she’s there, definitely responding, but in this very understated way. Makes sense given her nature I guess. Transformation happens slowly and cyclically, not in grand gestures.
Anyone else work with quieter spirits like this? Sometimes I wonder if I’m just projecting, but the consistency of these experiences suggests otherwise. I do like talking with her though, so I’ll try to keep it up.