>inb4 this isnt reddit
I know. I just refuse to use reddit.

So basically my bf and I have been together for a bit over a year now. We are both virgins and he is a couple years old than me.

I am sort of weird when it comes to the issue of sex. I am not from a very conservative or religious background at all, quite the opposite actually. My mom had a ton of different boyfriends and a ton of bad break ups I saw growing up. Most people in my family never got married.

So since I was a kid I was really scared of ending up like that, because I saw how it messed up my mom. Now I am worried that if I sleep with my boyfriend and we eventually break up, I will end up repeating my moms habit of finding a bf, sleeping with him, breaking up and doing it all over again with the next one. I think I would feel more secure waiting for marriage, so that I know that the person I have my first time with will most likely be the person I get to spend the rest of my life with as well.

Since my bf is pretty religious, I just assumed he shared that view, but a while ago he told me that he doesnt care about waiting for marriage and that he is really just waiting on me.

Now he knows my concerns regarding this whole thing and told me to wait however long I want and that hed wait (hes really amazing) but I still feel like this is something that bothers him, as he is about to turn 22 and is still a virgin. His siblings, especially his younger brother who is already more experienced than him, are giving him a lot of crap for it. Its obviously a joke, but he confessed to me that it is still starting to get to him.

I feel really bad. I dont know what to do and either way I feel like I am fucking up.