i'm a cockroach; irredeemable, unlovable, and undeserving of others. i become completely defined by my faults, even while i work hard to grow and develop myself. no matter what i will always be looked at with disinterest or scorn. openness and honesty with others will only lead to ruin. lies and concealment damage my psyche more than it hurts others. i'm worthless. by some definitions i'm not sure i'm even human.