I will be a permaboymodder for the rest of my life because ffs probably wouldnt save it and Im avpd and would rather be cute androgynous than ugly women.
Imagine realizing the future is permaboymodding and more significantly, self-repression, after 6 years of hrt because I mostly feel grief and pain whenever I do feel like a women.
but most of the time I dont feel much at all.

However it is important to note that it could be a lot worse. You could be disfigured and an orphan or you could be a slave (not a hot female) or you could be friendless, family-less, fat, ugly, be addicted to heroin, and have polio

sure is too bad ill never be good enough