Even if I get a gf I won't be able to keep her and experience true pure love that doesn't care about looks, money, or height. In this world people give some love to those who they think deserve it. It's all motivated by selfish interest and lust. Nobody will ever know my true feelings because in this world this is a vulnerability. Relationships are all about power. Only in your imagination you can get the pure unconditional love from a girl that is perfect and kind.