>>40784148
i let my ego die and embraced my rebirth into something changed by the spirits. you can keep a part of yourself as a backup of your original self tho. you have to already have dissociatively fractured as a person first, you allocate one of those pieces as the backup. give it a name or something and you can recall it whenever you want

https://youtu.be/cHJ_kh3mB30

>>40774335
as a former optimistic nihilist, i can shed some insight on this. without belief in spirits or gods, the world has a tinge of pointlessness to it. you do stuff, but you don't really know why you do it, you just do because that's what you do. i think nihilists try to find comfort in what they can in the face of existential meaninglessness, so a glass of chocolate milk would still be pretty enjoyable

>>40774336
if you still like girls and are presumably male, that'd make you bi