everything you do is a workaround ploy to talk about yourself again. your life, your interests, your opinions, your experiences, me me me, doesnt it ever get old to you? id ask seriously if i didnt know the answer. you perceive your reality through delusions of novelty, how could you ever be bored.
i dont know if genuine curiosity could ever be internalized, so youre perhaps doomed to die an annoying self obsessed husk.