Jizzabelle again. /b/ was right all along. There was no chance.

I know nobody cares at this point. This is just a small recap thread to look back at everything I did over the past week. Like the opposite of a victory lap:
>I have held onto the same bottle of Rosé for a week
>I spent $(150 + 160 + 430 + 430 + 430) on hotel rooms. For the $160 room, I begged on Twitter for the last five dollars.
>I got my first haircut since December 2018. Granted, it's sexy as hell. I chopped off about three years' worth of hair after never even having it trimmed
>I bought a $600 sapphire ring plus $150 warranty/resizing plan in case it didn't fit her
>I've been locked out of my friend group for at least four more days while they discuss if I'm even worth keeping around
>I got not only fired from the place we work at, but completely banned from the property.
>$250 on vibrators and sexessories
>Declined drinks and sex with two other coworkers, one who was obviously very attracted to me
>Canceled last-minute on my vacation plan to Florida to try and use the days off to seduce her; the ticket and AirBnB were already paid for ($939)

Again, I have no hard feelings against Alyse. I just love her and wanted to give her the night of her dreams. I just feel empty that my dream didn't come true.
I'm sure my workplace is continuing on the same as it ever was without me. They've probably already hired someone to replace me.

Everything I've lost was worth it to get my dream girl. I love you, Alyse.