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>Why can't I just be normal
Normalcy is not a virtue, its a port from which one sets sail into individuality.
Its "good" only in the sense that it provides a working default option for actions that you don't want to have to spend mental energy on.
>why am I so tempted by the devil's illusions.
Because they're neither illusions, nor of the devil, and your heart is insistently trying to tell you that.