It does feel good not to worry about transition and passing and voice and what other people think of trans people and my future and my relationships ending and people from my home town possibly finding out and spreading that info around and many many other things, and I can just exist. It is kinda lonely though. It's like nobody can see me for who I really am. I've always just presented as my birth sex, so literally nobody has ever known what has gone on in my mind. It feels like nobody really knows me not even a little. I kinda just want to be seen.