>>8106963
Hey friend. I know how you feel. My dad died three years ago of a sudden and fatal heart attack that came absolutely out of nowhere. I think of him a lot and miss him dearly. He loved me and I loved him but we spent too much of my life arguing. It was only in the last few years of his life that I felt really close to him.

Right now I'm trying to find his copy of Cormac McCarthy's The Road, a book he loved and a book about the love between a father and son. I feel like reading and having that book will make me feel close to him a little bit.

Ever since he died I've had an incredibly strong desire to have children, in particular a son, and establish a relationship like we had. It'll be weird to be on the other end but I'd like it very much. I'll tell my son about what a great man his grandad was and how the world would be a better place if he were here