I'm not crying every day anymore.
I don't know if that means I've accepted it or I've just grown numb.

I've seen other Max say they've had trouble sleeping and I'm not doing much better either.
In an attempt to find comfort I grabbed my shumo plushie and hugged it tightly but instead of gently drifting off to sleep I started violently sobbing and whimpering in ways I didn't even know I could. Now I'm still wide awake and not feeling much better. I am not ok, liggas. She's not even gone yet.