I spent 3 and 1/2 years doing nothing but gooning and robotripping in my bedroom and now my brain is totally fried beyond recognition. I wish I could take it all back, I used to actually enjoy reading, I had a vivid imagination, life was colorful. Now everything is gray. I'm depressed all the time. I can't put words together in my head. I've lost my sense of self. There really is nothing left for me to do but die, there's no point in living like this.